When I opened my eyes to the morning light at about 6 am, God was right there with a message. “There’s a new software update waiting to be downloaded into your soul”. I sat up, put each foot to the floor to the words “Thank…you”, and proceeded downstairs for my morning tea to wait for my update.
I sat with tea in hand and picked up a card given to me by a friend in the spring, at a crucial time in my journey. It was a time when I had one foot in depression and the other foot climbing out. It was a unique card. It was written in letter format:
Dear Linda,
Then a beautiful letter composed of scripture verses, and signed,
Your Heavenly Father
I keep that card by my chair and have read it everyday since. One verse that catches my mind daily is “I will tell you great and unsearchable truths.” I’ve been waiting two months for some “great unsearchable truth” and I had a feeling today was the day. I proceeded to move on to my morning reading and there it was, just waiting for me to download it:
“Although, we may come to realize that it may be our way of loving that needs to be shed and not who or what we care for.”
~ Mark Nepo
After the download was complete, it was a big Ah..ha moment. Many times when we love someone and hit major bumps in the road (trust, etc.) we are too ready to say “That person hurt me and should be put out of my life.” When, maybe, just maybe, we should step back and look at “how” we go about loving someone. Do we smother them, nag them, and completely squash the spirit we fell in love with in the first place, due to our fear of losing them? Or do we constantly pull them close then push them away, confusing them, due to our fear of getting hurt? We might find that by changing our MO instead of changing the person, the relationship just might take on a new dimension. Change the “how”, not the “who” and permanent, long-lasting relationships may not be that far out of reach. Who would’ve thought? Only God, of course.
And so, as another day goes by, I am now the proud possessor of one “great unsearchable truth”, and ….I have written.
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