Face and feel my fear….such simple, but powerful words. We all face fear in our lives at one time or another. Fear strikes in many ways. There’s fear of loss, fear of trusting, fear of being alone, fear of looking into our own two eyes,…and the list goes on.
I always feared fear. I would do anything to insulate myself against it. The old thinking of “if I can see it, then it can’t find me” kept me in the constant motion of trying to avoid it. The fear of loss made me anxious and stole who I really was. For the last few years I seemed to have lost my life to fear, as the result of an incident where I was able to prevent a loss so great I couldn’t bear it. This was a good thing at the time, but the repercussions of maybe losing it again in the future, changed who I was.
I finally stood and faced this fear. When I did, things within me began to change. I’m beginning to feel I am getting back a life I can barely remember having before the incident. There is a chasm between the two lives that I am unsure how to reconcile. But as Oprah says on ending her 25 year reign, there is a time for all things to end and change inevitably takes place. This change will put me back together again and bridge the gap, making a new me.
If you have a fear, stop running. Turn around and face it head on. Do what you need to do to steal the power it has over you. Don’t let the fear of anything rule your life by keeping you on the run trying to avoid it. Having the courage to face it will bring only good things and peace to your life.
And so, as another day goes by, I say “hello” to a person I recognize from long ago, and…I have written.
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