Sitting here watching the Penn State game and feeling bad, just so bad….for the students, especially the seniors (it’s senior day), Joe Pa, the alumni, and…most especially the victims. It’s a tremendous tearing down for all affected. Everyone will be changed by the heartbreak of it all. Next, the healing will have to begin. The building back up of so much brokenness. I pray God will be with all those so deeply hurt.
Once again, by sitting here listening, my GPS is being adjusted. October was about visiting old gauntlets and handling them in a new way. November is about being still, listening, and finding that inner peace. Through the Penn State happenings, my direction for December is being laid out before me. Shedding. The peeling off of a very old skin, worn thin by the last 20 years of my life. It’s dried up, cracking into pieces, and is no where near strong enough to support the next phase of my life.
If 2011 was about breaking down, I can make a sound guess that 2012 is going to be about building up. Slowly. In a new way. Step by step. Still somewhat painful. 2012 will be about growing a new, stronger, tougher skin, ready for the challenges of the coming years.
And so, as another day goes by, my marching orders were delivered in my morning meditation (below), and…I have written.
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