Today I started out strong being mindful and “in the moment”. Yoga class was great. I paid attention to every pose, didn’t get lost in brain flight, and even checked in to discover new things happening in my body at the end of a second five day week. The room was extra hot when I got there, but I had my breathing in check and the heat wasn’t a consequence. I was well-hydrated, so muscle fatigue wasn’t a concern either. I truly, truly, appreciated and was aware in every minute of class today.
Going out to my car I noted the feeling of the cool sea breeze and wish I’d worn my vest because it’s going to be a cold walk into the grocery store. I thoroughly enjoyed my drive down 6A to my local Stop N Shop. Being mindful on my drive I was enchanted by the sight of two huge swans with five new babies on the pond. This is going well. I’m gaining confidence. In the grocery store parking lot I appreciate the sight of my favorite size shopping cart already for me in my parking space. In the store I take note of all the special kiosks and summer gear beginning to appear. On my way back to my car, pushing my little cart, I take a moment to savor being able to grocery shop along side the canal, smelling the ocean. Driving home I sigh when I stop at the stoplight to realize the quaint beauty of a town I can call mine. Pulling into the driveway of my tiny seaside dwelling, I really, really find joy and gratitude for being so blessed to live here.
I get out of the car, reach into the backseat for my yoga bag and mat and – oh no! No mat. In my being mindful of my surroundings leaving the studio, I left my mat there. And it’s Friday. And the studio is closed. My mat is heavy with sweat and cannot stay there until Monday. There’s a 4pm class which means at 3:30 I’ll be going back to the studio to retrieve my heavy, wet mat.
Just when I thought I was gaining on this mindfulness stuff, once again it contributed to my mindlessness. I think I’ll take the weekend off. This mindful business is a lot more work than it’s worth. Thank goodness it’s Friday, and a Lean Cuisine pizza and bottle of Pino Grigio are in my radar for dinner this evening as I wait for my dear husband to arrive. (And maybe take my mind off of my mind.)
And so, as another day goes by, I wish one of you would try this paying close attention to what you are doing every moment of one day and let me know if it’s as hard for you, as it is for me. Bring on the weekend…and …I have written.
Happy weekend…isn’t this the most beautiful pencil drawing you ever saw? 🙂
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