….to all of my readers tonight. I hope you all had an amazing day with your family and the true meaning of Xmas prevails in your home tonight. As the day comes to a close, I have so many things to be thankful for – one being the noise and laughter coming down my stairway as the girls unpack their stuff and settle in. At 25 & 29 they might as well be 5 & 9 as they yell “Ma!” for this or that and squabble over who gets what space. It’s nice. The noise in an otherwise quiet house, returns. For this, I am thankful.
Hubby is putting his stuff away and told them no presents until 8:30! Just like old times, except this time we are having Xmas night instead of Xmas morning, and it is our first Xmas in what is now our home, at the cape.
This has been a tough year with the loss of my mom, and it’s time for new traditions and new beginnings. As hard as it was not being able to tell my mom about this Xmas here at our house, I truly feel the peace as change slowly takes place and the torch gently gets passed to the next generation. Now I am the mom. I have three beautiful girls that I must now be here for, just as my mom was always here for me as I forged my path in life and built my family. Soon they will marry and build their families and I will be the grandma. Grandma. That was a nasty word to me up until this year. I now look forward to a future with their children. It replaces my sadness with hope. I accept the torch from my mom and I only hope I can do for them what she has done for me. Mom, you may be gone, but not forgotten. I will use all you taught me each day in the coming years.
And so, as another Xmas comes to an end, I will basque in peace, joy, love, and laughter tonight, and ….even on Xmas ..I have written.
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