Today I’m feeling pretty on top of it – I had my second five day yoga week of 2012. All the other weeks were four day weeks, with the break coming on Wednesdays due to commitments both in the morning and evening. The four day weeks were good – but the real benefits are found in five consecutive days. My body gets to start off rested and a bit stiff on Monday morning. Then I have an extremely tough Tuesday, and instead of missing Wednesday, I get to come back and have an easy day, feeling things are all back in line where they should be. Because I had the Wednesday, now I really get to work on Thursday, experiencing the yoga tackle new muscles and reach deeper into the organs of my body. Thursday’s class is tough. Yesterday I almost didn’t survive that one. The thinking of choice right about now would be to consider taking Friday off. After all, I was there four days in a row, but taking Friday off would be like missing the ending of a movie I just spent 90 minutes watching. Friday is the day that pulls it all together. It’s neither easy, nor is it hard. It’s just “happy”. Each body part feels it’s at it’s optimal performance level. I leave class with an exorbitant amount of energy to take with me into my weekend. I feel complete. The yoga has done it’s job.
Maybe the five day week is not what I wanted – I sure could’ve used this morning to do other things that were on my mind. I really really felt the urgency to get started on laying out and rewriting my book, but I slowed myself, realizing that whenever I feel that “urgency”, that’s my cue to do the opposite. Go to yoga and slow things down. When I came home I so wanted to start cutting up pieces of paper and arranging pages all over the counter, but I didn’t finish the reading I had started yesterday teaching me how to do this. Again, that “urgency”. Again, my clue to slow it down. I ate my lunch and settled in with the book – with one eye on those scissors.
I have learned to watch and be aware of this “urgency” over the course of this past year. “Urgency” points out what I want, which in most cases, is not what I need. Going to yoga gave me the completeness and energy I needed. Reading the book gave me the quiet consciousness to realize I still don’t know what I’m doing and laying out the pages really needs to be left until next week when I can take my time – time is what I need.
And so, as another day goes by, once again I revisit “what I want just may not be what I need” and urgency creates an awareness of that, and …I have written.
I could definitely relate to the urgency thing and love quote-post